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well its summer time && theres no complaining about that for the most part..
soccer : i am managing a U-11 boys soccer team for FC Nova. which is going to look perfect on my college app's && things for jobs. so thats that. also i'm playing on a U-19 girls team for Gators. its with a bunch of girls from my city. && from like Tower && some other places.
tennis : hasn't been going so good lately. we have practice 10-12 monday, thurs, and saturday and it seems that only about 4 people show up if that. but now that we finally got a key to the lamphere courts, we can practice on good courts. but i really hope that we can get more people to come, bc if we dont get people then we are going to suckkk. && its my senior yr && i want to have a good season.
work : i havent been workign as much as i'd like. but i'm still getting hours && they are good, sometimes. i would like to work more during the week but what ever happens happenes, .. && i love my job && the people i work wth.
love : ha, still nonexistent. sorta. i'm still madly in love with the person i've been in lvoe with since 6th grd. but its ok. things wil work its way out. i dont want to ruin his relationship that he has right now. but i mean i do want to be with him. but we'll see where things go.
friends : i've lost a lot of friends this summer, but i've become closer with my main ones. i'm glad.
ITS THE SUMMER TIME BABY
THE LIVIN IS SWEET
I'M NOT TURNING MY BACK ON FUN
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Hey ya'll...
havent quite finished tellin ya'll about my prom nite. but i dont really remember everything. all i know is that i have the best time of my life && some nasty ass manly-looking hoe came up && danced on me, trying to start shit w/ me. so yeah its sweet. but whatever.
its been a busy couple of weeks.
i'm now working at Olga's && i love it there. seriously. its wayy better than at 5-7-9 && i'm also gettin more days in. i love it. plus we get to eat all the snackers that we want, all the pop to drink, and when there are extra smoothies (which there always are) we get to have them!! Yummyyyy! tehe!.
this weekend i'm going to Canada to coach a soccer tourney w/ Ehab. Ricky && John's soccer teams are playing there, && the U18's are also playing. which gets me on to my next subject. Nico he has to be one of the cutest guys ever && hes so freakin' sweet @ soccer. im in love. (jk). lmao. but yeah. i guess yesterday at practice, my mom went bc i had to work, && Ehab asked where i was. so my mom told him that i was at work, and that i tried to get off because it was her bday. && then Ehab was like "oh yeah sure, she prolly just wanted to see Nico" and he heard, and was like "Who, Cassie?!" so yeah i'm like whoa. when my mommy told me, i was like OMG, yayyyy! lmao. yeah it was sad.
yesterday was my mommys bday. i didnt have time to get her anything, && bc i had to work so i couldnt take her out to dinner either, like i wanted. so yeah. i made her a really cute card. but yeah, i'm taking her out to lunch or dinner sometime this weekend. so yeah.
as of right now.
me amy, kelly, and sarah k are in the english computer lab. we are supposed to be working on our english projects. but me n' aims are wrting in our livejournals. kelly is texting/reading some quotes that i printed out for her && klein is playing some game on the internet; its called Crime Puzzle. we are sweet. && we are all listening to music. Aims has You Know What, by Avant. me n' klein are listening 2. i was listening to Say I, by Christina Milian.. yeah we know, we're sweet. LOVES IT!!! haa..
tonite, i work 6-10. at Olga's. i might be going out after with Bex && ppl. but not sure yet, hopefully i can, because its been a longgg week && you have no idea how bad i just need to get out && get fucked up like no otherrrr! thats hot!. what now!
Oh my laugh of the week!
a dumbass was talking shit. calling me a fucking crazy ass psycho. dont you just love when people are that obsessed with you that they have to constantly make up shit because they cant let you go. honestly. just get over yourself, because your the one who broke up with me. why is it that you just cant get over it. && stop talking about me, seriously. just stop. your making yourself look like a dumbass and an idiot. bc if you cant get over it by now. thats sad. your the one who has a girlfriend && whom of which you cheated on me with. so yeah. just stop all the drama, you have more drama than any girl i know. and its making me sick. seriously. how many times a day do you have to say something about me. honestly . wow. you crack me up. i must have really gotten to you with my prom date. bc ever since then you've been talking non-stop shit about me && it makes you seem like an arrongant son of a bitch.
oh and if you want, you can tell you && your sister && your family that if they want we can go to court. any day any time. && ill beat your ass in any case that you bring about.!!! THANKSSS
IM BOSSYYYYY!
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Mk. So Prom was on saturday. I had the best time ever. It was soo much fun. Love It.!
went with David Stephens. n' he was hott. ha. Prom was at Andiamo's. Me, David, && Sarah went together. Sarahs boo Cody was in Canada for hockey, so he couldnt go. But anyways. I looked so good, not gun'a lie. LmAo.!. Me, David, Sarah, NMac, Tom(NMac's date) took pictures @ my house. Kelly Rene came over for pictures 2, b4 she went to work. Then we headed to Kristen's house for pictures with everyone else. Karl, Kaitlin, Jeff, LC, Joe, Megan, Kristen, && Matt looked really good, we took pictures with them. && Thats where i'm going to end, because i'm not going to get mean about what happened after that. Then we went into Kristens house for some snacks. Then we left && headed to prom around 5:45.
Prom, dinner was ok. not as good as expected. I was kinda bored, for the dinner part. But then the music started, well the good music, and thats where the fun begins. Had a blast dancing with David, Klein, NMac, Tom, Emily, and David. So Much FUNNNN. really glad that i went with David. && i'm really glad that he actually knew people there. He knew like 4 people, i think. && he said that he had a good time, which i am very glad that he did.
oh and the one person that i can not stand on this planet, well one of them , there are asctually 2.. but she decides to come up to me and dance up on me. && its a really good thing that i didnt look @ her face, because she would have been on the floor. No one knows why she did that, because she should have known that i dont like her && that i would have hit her if i would have seen her face. i'm wondering if she was looking to start something, bc if she was i would have finished it, but i wasnt going to be gettin kicked out of my prom. she shouldnt have even been there. er that pisses me off. && david was saying in my ear "dont do it cassie, dont do it, dont look at her, just dont do it" && then tried to tell her "get the fuck away from her, because shes going to fucking punch you in the face" .god she fuckin pisses me off.
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this week was.. hm.. yeah..
friday. i didnt really have anything to do. so i took john n' ricky n' jacob to soccer @ shelby for training. then i came home. chilled around the house for a lil' bit. went online. then went to johns soccer game @ 9. they kicked ass. some of the guys on the other team sucked n' all they could do was hit n' hack n' push. so yeah. then i came home, went online like usual. helped my dad with some stuff. n' then fell asleep watching Law n' Order.
saturday. in the morning, since tammi was here. i had to clean up after linds n' tam. then i went to my appt at noon w. nicole. it was good. we talked about what i was going to do about prom. because i have tickets n' i wanna ask this one guy, but i'm really nervous to. n' we talked about soccer n' stuff. then i came home n' ate some lunch. then me n' tam n' linds n' my mom went to the mall to get my ears pierced. since i want to wear earrings for prom n' we need to see if i have out-grown my "only able to wear gold in my ears" thing. so yeah. then after that. i came home n' just sat around, sorta rested up. then me n' my sister left for my game. we went to watch the first game. (which was at 7). then i played in the 2nd game (at 8). n' i was really mad because i played really bad (even tho everyone said that i played good) n' i was the only one to care (besides lke 2 other people). so yeah. then after the game. me n' my sister went to tacobell. then i just came home n' chilled. i was to mad to go out, i was supposed to hang out with bex n' stuff. but i was to upset. n' pissd off.
sunday.today. didnt really do anything today. woke up n' i thought it was really late in the day, but it was only 9:45. so then i went on the computer. talked to joel for a lil' while, like i always do. then cleaned up the house b4 my parents got home. then i showered n' got ready. had mom do my hair. then we went to rickys soccer game. came home. ate dinner. then i had a work meeting, which was gay as hell n' stupid. then came home n' i had to watch this "myspace news" thing.bc my mom made me. n' now i'm just chillin'. n' starting my hmwrk. so yeah.
this week is going to be boring. n' next week starts spring break!!!!!
ahh sooo excited. yayyy
well i'm outtie. pc loves
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this week has been so crazy and long. and its only thursday.
sunday: i went to go and watch my boys team Gators play @ Seaholm. they lost but it was a good game. then i came home and found out the Bobbi n' Sammi's daddy died today. =(. i was so sad.
monday. school, of course, and it was so gay. we had our math MEAP. and it was so easy, but watch, because i thought it was easy, i probably failed it. oh well. then i went straight to work from 3-close. and of course, we didnt get out of there until 9:45. which sucked. 3 gay guys came in at like 9:05, when we were supposed to be closed. and they were lookin' for an outfit. and one of them said that i had a nice butt. ew. lmao. then i just came home, at dinner because i hadnt eaten all day. then went to bed.
tuesday. school. like usual. had our social studies MEAP and it was hard && annoyin. but it was our last one. so once that was done, me sarah n' kristen talked. then i had reg school. gayyy. after school i showered n' got ready 4 the funeral viewing for Mr. Hill. i stayed for an hour or 2, mostly for Bobbi n' Sam. it was so sad to see Bobbi touching her father. i cried.
wednesday. school. durr. then i came home, took john to the ortho. then went to the funeral home. Bobbi n' Sammi werent there, so I talked to Mrs. Judi for a lil' while, then i went home. ended up falling asleep on the couch, right before i was supposed to go to soccer practice. so then i went to the funeral home around 7:30 w/ my mom n' dad. stayed for an hour. then came home. ate dinner n' then just chilled && talked to my dad.
today. it was so nice outside, i really wish we didnt have school. but we had school. && in botany class we gardened. me rugina and kristen were out in the front of the school working on our part of the garden. we saw lots of worms && freaked out. and we saw some yucky grubs. (they remind me of Lion King., te he). then i went to get gas for my car, because it was going to stall (again) because i was below E. n' i think i might need more oil or an oil change for my car. because it sounds kinda bad, and seems like its going to like freak out on me. (yes i said that my car was going to freak out on me). lmao.
tomorrow. ITS FRIDAY. if the boys have a soccer game, going to coach w/ Ehab n' watch them play. or they have practice, so i'll prolly end up having to take them to practice. then i might go out or something, who knows
saturday, appointment with Nicole at 12. then not sure what i have during the day. but at 8 pm. i have a soccer game. then i think i'm going out with my loves this weekend, because i didnt/couldnt go out last weekend.
who wants to go to prom with me this year?!..
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this weekend was great.
friday. i went to my lil' brothers soccer game. i had to coach. the other team didnt show up (well only 3 did). so we split the teams up and they scrimmaged. of course my team was killin' Jon Hanna's team. but then lil' Sean got cleated. tore open his shin. so we had to stop. I felt bad for the boy. but yeah. Then i went home and just chilled for the nite. I was gun'a go out, but I def. fell asleep on the couch. n' then woke up and was up until like.. 3 in the morning.
saturday. i woke up at 8:30. kinda just chilled and since i finally got my computer back, i was on that most of the day. i mostly just hung around the house until my game. had a game at 6. it was crazy. we played some crazy boaters. they werent that good, but they could just shoot and yeah, it stunk. we ended up losing 7-2 (i think). but i made some kid cry. we both went up for a header, and we collided heads. it hurt really bad. but i guess it hurt him more than it hurt me. because he went off the field holding his head, crying, and i just had a headache but kept playing. it was fun. then after my game, i went home n' showered. then since it was Eric's birthday, we all had to go back to the 10 o'clock game. Everyone played, but since my head and my knee hurt really bad, i just watched. it was a good game. then after we had cake n' sang Eric "happy birthday." I must say, my team are a bunch of pitiful singers. lmao. then i just went home and chilled.
sunday. today. lets see. the clocks went forward one hour. but according to the clocks i woke up at 10:30. and it felt great, because i havent been able to sleep in, in a long time. when i woke up, i ate breakfast. then layed around. when my mom came home. we went to Mariann's house to get some stuff for the bird's and our friends new baby. we stayed n' chatted for a while. then we came home. then i went to watch my gator guys play some soccer. they lost, but they played really good. well most of them did, ok no like 2 of them did. but other than that it was a good game, and they were playing a D 1 team. so yeah. then i came home n' i went on the computer. and thats pretty much what i did the entire day. i was on the computer talking to Joel n' some other people for most of the day, and when I wasnt, I was watching tv. It felt nice to just relax and kind of have a boring day, because I havent been able to in a longgg time. then LC called me. n' i went over to her house, because thats what i do every sunday @ 9pm. of course to watch Desperate Housewives. and it was fabulous tonite. like always. Then i flew home, and cleaned the counters. now i'm gettin ready to go to bed
tomorrow. monday. i have MEAPS. its the math one i think, which is going to suck majorlyyyy.. so yeah. then school, of course. and then after school, i have to fly to work, because i work from 3-close. which sucks. i havent worked in like 2 weeks, or more. and i kinda liked not working. i mean its bad. n' i hate not having money, but ya know. i just dont like working, its to much work.
next weekend. i have a soccer game, like usual. then who knows. n' sunday, going to watch the boys play n' LC's house for DH.
I'm sooo excited. I found out today, that I'm going to play in the tourny's with the guys. (since i was to late of signing up for outdoor). but yeah. our first tourny is in May. its the weekend of the 26. and i'm totally stoked. because 1. i'll be playing soccer. 2. i'll be with a bunch of hot guys 3. in a hotel with a bunch of hot guys. n' 4. i'll be playing soccer with a bunch of hott guys.
i mean does it get any better.haa. i love it. i love my life. =D/
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i finally got my computer back, well partly. its still in my dads room and hes still got to delete some of his n' my moms info off the computer, but atleast i'm able to use it now. and i dont have to freak everyday without one.
Happy Birthday To Sarah Elizabeth Kleinert :D
well alright. this week has been so crazy.
monday tuesday wednesday and thursday were MEAPS. i think i did ok, but i'm really nervous about my science one, it was really hard and confusing.
i havent worked in like 2 weeks n' i'm kinda glad. idk, i'm just so sick of work. its so boring and tiring, and pointless. because i'm not gettin many hours. but its alright.
wednesday, i was supposed to coach my brothers soccer game, because Ehab wasnt supposed to be there. but he was there and i played. it was crazy. playing with really old kids, but on a team of like 13 n' 14 yr olds. its crazyyy.
thursday i didnt really do anything. i watched Walk The Line. i loved it, because Reese is in it. n' i love her. shes so pretty. and i fell asleep like really early.
today. i took my brothers to soccer practice. and on my way home, not realizing that i was like wayy 2 far below E, my car stalled, but luckly i got it into a parking lot. i called AAA, was guna have them come bring me gasoline for my car. but instead i had Matt Rewitzer bring me some gasoline. te he. gotta love my "older bro". then i went to my brothers game 2 coach them (for real this time). n' they had to scrimmage because only 3 of the other teams boys showed ontime, and then once the game was over, the other 3/4 of the team got there.
tomorrow. which just so happens to be the 3 yr of my Aunt being gone. i have a soccer game. so it should be fantastic. NOT. but hopefully, i wont think about it as much. because i love her so much n' miss her that much more, it will be hard for me to concentrate at the tasks at hand. and hopefully after the game, if i dont stay to watch or play the other game, i'll be able to go out with my friends.
sunday. clocks have to go forward, one hour. which means i'm losing an hour of valuable sleep. gosh darnit. i'm on call for work from 1-6. doubt they will need me, but if they do then i'll be working. if not then i'm not sure what i'll be doing.
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hey ya'll.
i'm in english right now. we just got done taking our first days of MEAPS. te he. they suck major balls. thats all i gotta say.
this weekend was crazy. not really.
i had a soccer game on saturday. we lost 1-0. but we played really good, even tho it was a really boring game.
A DOGG SAYS HEY! te he.
i did get my prom dress tho. its cute, light blue strapless. yay. but now i just gotta figure who i'm going with. the one person that i wanted to ask to prom, isnt really talking to me right now. so yeah i dont see how thats going to work. so as of this moment in time, i'm dateless to prom. and theres no one at my school i want to go with. so if i do go with someone, i'm going with someone from a different school.
any takers, lmao..
anyways, i got a long week of MEAPS and work, and school ahead of me, it sucks.
oh and i have a interveiw at Red Robin 2maro (tuesday) @ 4 Pm. wish me luckers!
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well.. alot has happened since i last updated. i'll just write about the highlights.
hung out with ryan on tuesday, but i havent seen him since. its kinda sad. =(.
i am now playing soccer with not only the gators, but i'm training with FC Nova U18 boys team. my brothers coach coaches the team, and wanted me to train with them. its soo much fun. i love it.
i dyed my hair. i am no longer a blonde. i wanted to dye it brown, like a dark brown. but thats not the color it turned out, its def red. but i like it. and a lot of people have told me that they like it, so i guess its not so bad.
we tied our soccer game last nite. 4-4. my line was flawless. te he. except for one player, but its all good.
i love playing with them. they are so much fun. and its a lot less drama then the girls team. so yeah. i love it. and its not that bad , because they are nice and cute. tehe!
so yeah, those are my highlights of the days/weeks i didnt update.
now i gotta go get ready for soccerpractice.
Basically i rock
SO I UNDERSTAND IF YOUR JEALOUS.
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i just wanted to say..
that i love my life
i love the people in it
and i love everythingggg
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[12 Mar 2006|02:39pm] |
Hey its kyle. Its saterday night or i guess sunday morning today i finished unpacking then went to princesses house. That would be my wonderful girl friend Cassie. I love her so much. We hung out watched some T.V and looked at pics from ludington. We had a lot of fun..I just hate not haveing her so close to me every night i miss cuddleing and stuff. Shes just the best. We bought matching T-shirts from ludington so we can wear them togather. Then after that we went to my house where she played with ashley my 3 year old cousin. They look so cute togather. Ashley cheated when they played candyland but i think cassie might of too. lol we ate dinner with my fokes then went next door and watched duffy my neighbors puppy why they went to a wedding we had fun and watched animal house. IDK if she actually liked it. Tomm we r going to church in the morn. then off to my aunts for a surprise b-day party.Its wayy out in holly but cassies going so i am happy. But I am out... I love u Cassie more then ne thing!!!!
~Kyle
i can't believe i used to believe when he said this. this is just proof to how much of a liar you were.
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well. i love my life.
this week has been crazy. and so was last week.
friday nite: i worked 4-9:30. then i rented movies (Yours, Mine, and Ours & Saw 2). Ryan came over and we watched Yours, Mine and Ours.
saturday nite: i went to my sisters soccer practice. then came home, showered. and went to the mall. then we came back, i took a nap. then i got ready for my soccer game. played a game @ 7 with the boys. it was fun. i got hit in the mouth by our goalie, and it hurt like a mother. but i had sooo much fun playin with them. and i'mplayin next week. then after that i came home, showered, and went to ryans. he was having people over, and i just talked with Ryan Jaws and some of his other friends, then matt n' kristen came over. then around 11:30, i had to leave.
sunday: i worked from 1-close with Keosha, it was freakin' crazy. it made me so mad becuase the people who were there. and they were messing up the store like no other. then i came home, did hmwrk.
monday: i went to school. txted ryan jaws all day. then i came home. ended up having to go to work. worked from 5-close with LeeAnn and Nicole. then i came home, got yelled @ like usual. then did hmwrk. read for english class. then i went to bed.
today: i have school until 3. then i have to go home and work on my current issues project. err. then i'm going to ryans house to watch house, but idk. then comin' home and going to bed.
tomorrow: school until the 3 time. then i'm working from 6-close. it sucks. but its ok because at least i'm gettin' hours in. and then i'm comin' home and going to bed.
thursday: school. and hopefully ryan and matt are coming up to the school to visit me and kristen. yayyyy. but then yeah.
friday: not sure what i'm doing yet.
saturday: therapy at noon with Nicole. then i'm going to Matts basketball game with Kristen at 2:30. then i have a soccer game with the boys (or i might be playin' in 2 games). funnn stuff. then who knows
so yeah, that was my past week and whats to come*
i'm outtie ya'll
<3/ *.: C Nic :.*
i'm so over the drama.
i'm so over you.
i want this shit to be overrr with
why did it end up being like this..
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The Ex Boyfriend Survey*
What's his name?: Kyle
Where'd you meet this asshole?: school, in 6th grd.
How long were you together?: almost 7 months
What'd this cat look like?: 5'9'', brown hair w/ blonde highlights.
Sexy?: sure
What attracted you to him?: personality, looks, that i could be myself with him,
How'd he treat you in the beginning?: like a princess
The end?: like shit
The jerk ever cheat on you?: yupp.
You ever cheated on him?: never
Why/Why not?: because i loved him, and only him.
What was the sweetest thing he ever did for you?: bought me flowers when he was sick, left them in my car, and asked me to h/c.. like they did in Laguna Beach.
The LEAST sweetest thing?: told me that i couldnt talk to other guys, but he could talk to other girls, lied to me, cheated on me.
He have any bad habits I should know about?: being a hypocrite, bastard, and asshole
He ever hit you?: when we wrestled
Did you really love him?: yes i did
You think he really loved you?: i thought he did, but i dont know
Why/Why not?: because he wouldnt have hurt me the way he did, and wouldnt have cheated on me. and lied about it
You ever think about him?: yeah, sometimes.
You ever considered working things out with him?: i did at first, but now helll nooo
If you could change one thing about him, what would it be?: to tell the truth.
What did you like most about him?: the way i felt when i was with him.
So, do you miss him?: not now, i did.
If so, youre stupid. Kidding!:. yeah i know
If you could talk to him right now, what would you say to him?: why, what really happened. just tell me everything.
Any hard feelings?: um yeah .. sorta
Would you want to be friends?: isnt worth the pain.
If you could go back to one point in your relationship, where would it be?: the day we had sex
Did you spend this Christmas with him?: yes, my aunts house, and his aunts house.
If so, what'd he get ya?: hoodie from Aero, pants from aero, 4 socks from aero, and body spray from VS
What'd you get him?: Florida Gators hat, hoodie, necklace, winter hat, matching scarf, n' a hat rack
How old is he?: 16
How old are you?: 17
He have a new gf?: oh yeah.
If so, how do you feel about it he does/did?: pissed off, because thats the girl he lied about, and stuff, and cheated on me with
You like anyone new?: yeah.
More than your ex?: i think so.
Did you ever think that he was your "soul mate"?: yeah i really did. sadly
What was the funnest thing you ever did together?: um.. to many things.
You ever cryed over him?: wayyy too many times.
He ever cryed over you?: no. not that i kno of, doubt it
Do you think he misses you?: no
Or still cares about you?: no
How do you feel about him now?: i miss him. but then again, i'm over his bullshit, so yeah hate him
How do you want things to be with you two?: i would like to be friends. but that will never happen again. idk. i just want the truth to be out btwn us. and put the past in the past and move on.
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this break was by far. the best ever. lets see if i can remember it all and fill ya'll in!..
ok so you know what happened up 2 tuesday.
wednesday. i worked close, so i didnt really do anything during the day. i hung out around the house, and cleaned.
thursday. i dont remember what i did during the day. but me n' ryan went to see FREEDOMLAND. and it was fun! crazy movie tho!
friday. i went shopping with my sister. and i hung out with her most of the day. we went to watch John n' Ricky play in their 3v3 soccer tourney. Then i went to Emily's house for her bday party. fun times there. Then Ryan, n' Matt came with me 2 our SURPRISE dinner for Kristen, since she came home from Florida. And then we went bowling. I had so much fun. I have a blast with all of them. Johnny, LC, Jeff, Brittany, Kristen. and now Ryan and Matt.
Saturday. i had therapy at noon. it was great. really got to talking with Miss Nicole. she said that I seemed really happy. and she's glad that everything is going so good for me. I LOVE IT!. then after that. i went to the mall with Lindsay and Tammi. Funny Stuff. We took pictures in the photo booth, funny funny. Then we came home. They played DDR, then left me when I wanted to play. then after that. around 7. Matt n' Kristen picked me up, and we went to Ryan's hizouse. yay. we watched Miracle, well sorta. I was fallin' asleep during it. Then they played Texas Hold 'em, and I layed down. We watched the re-runs of the Apollo skating (i think thats what it is called). sweet stuffs dude. Then Ryan brought me home
*i met Nicole and Melisa. they are really nice. n' pretty. te he.!!. *
Sunday/Today. i had a family breakfast at my cousin's work. *O'Mara's*. her boss came over, and took a pic. and then talked to everyone. I had to miss my work meeting, because my Uncle Dennis was running late. But I got lots of good food!. yummy in my tummy.! te he. Then I worked from 11:45-6:30. I text my mom and Ryan during the whole time. Oh n' I found out that my cousin Brooke got engaged today to Dan. shes 16, its crazy. I dont know how I feel about this. =\. its crazy shit dude. seroiusly. But then when I got home from work, talked online for a bit. Then went to LC's house. Hung out and talked 2 Her. we called Kristen, and she came over. We looked at pictures of LC and her family from back in the day. Then we were supposed to watch DH. but it wasn't on tonite, so we watched LINGO. and then I came home, because I'm gettin' ready for bed, and watching Grey's Anatomy. Then going to bed.
Tomorrow. I'm not sure what I'm doing. If my sister has a volleyball game I might go to that. I really dont want to go back to school. I mean I do because I miss alot of people that are in my classes. But the main people I care about, I saw just about everyday of the break. So it's all good. But its ok, because I think next weekend we're gunna go ice skating =D. te he. love it.
well that was my break. i had a blast. gosh i love my life right now. its like i have a permanent smile on my face, because i just can't stop smiling. its crazy. i dont know when the last time i was this happy. sweet stuffs. love it. i love my friends. i love my family. i love my puppy. and i love my ry guy. te he.
chills. butterflies }i{
i've got something special.
and i couldnt be happier!
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do you believe in magic.. aly and aj |
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how can i have someone so perfect in my life. i dont deserve him at all. i really dont. he's always there for me. and hes the sweetest guy ever. he is my best friend. hes perfect. seriously. i dont know what i would do without him. seriously.
he is my blessing that i've needed. and i love him.
ryan muneio, you are the greatest ever.
wanna know what is the weirdest thing ever.
as i'm writing this entry..
the song
"Do you believe in magic"
comes on..
how freakin' weird.
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I still get lost in your eyes and it seems that i cant live a day without you, and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time I want whats yours and i want whats mine
I want you
But im not giving in this time
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well lets see.
laura pretty much said everything that has happened 2 me over break besides that i worked.
today. i babysat w/ laura, and worked. then i came home and cleaned and then ryan and laura came over 2 watch movies.
we watched some of Diary Of A Mad Black Woman. all of The Notebook. and I got 2 watch all of Just Like Heaven. they are awesome movies i must say. love them.
i love my friends.
well the ones that i have left.
people are so fake these days.
all they do i say one thing 2 ur face.
and another behind your back.
freakin' hate that. god.
IM MOVIN' ON.
and i'm freakin excited 4 that.
te he.
love it. i love life. i love the ppl in it.
all i have to say, is that i'm over your bullshit. i'm over the fact that your so fucking 2 faced. seriously. what ever. your nice 2 my face, say all this shit about him and his g/f. and then when your with him, you talk nonstop shit about me. and then pin everything on me. like your all mighty god and would never do anything wrong. well the truth is going to come out sooner or later. when people find out how fake you are, and how much shit you talk. and how much better you think you are than everyone else. its going to back-fire on your ass. and i'm going to laugh. and be there in the end telling you "I TOLD YOU SO". because i did. a lot of people have. and when it turns out that you and your "buddy" are alone. dont come crying to me. dont try to "make your move" and hit on me. because i'm fucking over it. and your bullshit that you bring. seriously. i fucking hate you. and your lies. and your bullshit. and your soon to be cheating ways. seriously. god you are so fucking immature and think your better than everyone else. but your not. get over yourself. PLEASE and THANK YOU.
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what up doe.. LMAOOO lets see saturday - sunday that hasnt passed yet i hung out with the best person in the world.. LAURA ALINA COTOS... we saw date movie , we went bowling , watched DHW AND GA .. then thoought of a surprize ferrr kristen for when she gets back from florida ... and lets see what else oh yea and a PAPER BBALL GAME that laura won. and right this secound im helping her babysit.. and im drinking tea and eating strwbarries. ANF I BROUGHT FUN DIP. dang im having a sweet ass break. And thats it for right now. ill write ya later.. PC
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i love my friends sooo much. i dont know where i would be with out them.
the true ones are there when times get tough.
*so tture, sooo true*
*s0 cl0se your eyes until y0u fall asleep, and dream 0f me...*
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This is a tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be that they are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girl's who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe, just maybe this time he'll have understood. This is a homage to the girls who *laugh loud and often* who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more then they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for the girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from " there are plenty of fish in the sea" to "time heals all wounds" This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.
This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they dont want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose cruse, who have recieved drunk phone calls just before dawn from someone who doesnt care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed >> This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages << who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt.This is for the girls who have been told they're “too good” or “too smart” or “too pretty”, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.
This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because its easier to be with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that “he's not ready”, “he's just not over her” , “he's just not looking to be tied down”;; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because… it’s easier to believe that its not that they dont want you, its that they dont want anyone. <?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />
This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place, this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasnt that he didnt want a relationship; it was that he didn’t want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him. Thinking that if you only comfronted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way perhaps he'd realize what it was that he really had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to get to sleep.
This is for the " I really like you, so let's still be friends " comment after you read more into a situation then he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've recieved from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are “beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy”; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow andyour teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because atleast he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing. though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisfied with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more; for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thown to them by guys.
This is what I dont understand - Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else then where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share their lives, that girls play mind games, that girls love to keep them hanging… Yet, men- I ask you were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrilling, compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet, and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call .. and if you were to recieve a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediatly call your friends and tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that arguement you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.
So don't say you're on the lookout for the nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise; sometimes when that girl in the low cut skirt or the too tight mini skirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing . .we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing. " This isnt me. Tomorrow morning I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast, See through the disguise, See me" …You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl. . so dont say you're looking for a relationship- relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty, and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe “nice guys finish last”, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets .. the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congratulatory hug, hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.
So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting, however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat.
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